tapestry

Last week I was having a conversation with someone I love dearly.   During that conversation I made the comment “I have been to the mountaintop”.  I was even a bit surprised those words came out of my mouth.  I am not one of those people who has had a “white light experience” or nothing as profound  as near death expereince.  But I do feel I have been to the mountain top.  And then as I watched the activities of the last two days with the Inaugration of our 44th President Barack Obama, I started to ponder more about what that means to me. 

What I realized this mornning was  the feeling  I wanted to convey during the conversation that didn’t happen was, for me at the top of the mountain”Everything Makes Sense and Nothing Makes Sense”.  Michael Beckwith of Agape Spiritual Center, Culver City, CA, was speaking on Spiritual Liberation two weeks ago in Denver.  I credit much of the evolution of my consciousness to being able to attend his center for 7 years while living in Southern California.  During the 3  hour presentation I experienced many emotions and a soul massage.  During one of the meditations he does with his wife Rickie Byars Beckwith chanting in the background I was elevated to the top of the mountain once more.   While at the top, everything made sense to me…Unconditional Love, Joy, Peace and Understanding are found.  I felt connected, both to the spark of light that I know is spirit within me, but to those around me and those that I love.  Everything felt right, whole complete including me. 

So how does the “Nothing Makes Sense” fit?  Once I came back to the heartland and tried to connect to those people I love nothing that I felt that evening was present for me.  But the experience of the mountaintop doesn’t go away.  I am really struggling with some personal issues in my life right now, and without the mountain top experience I would probably not have hope.  But because I am able to recognize the top I know that it is attainable.

I would want you to know that you don’t have to have a white light experience or even die and come back to life, but when we chose to connect, really authentically connect with our fellow travelers we can get there.  That at that moment when you feel like everything makes sense, all things fit together,  when all pain is void of anything but understanding and agape love you are at the top of the mountain.  And when nothing makes sense that is a part of the mountain top experience also.  We have to have both experiences to know …to be light.

When Rick Warren led our country, nation and world in  the Lord’s Prayer yesterday, my face was wet with tears.  I know one of the obligations I have is to create more of heaven on earth.  And I know it isn’t something that one can do alone…will you climb with me to the top of the mountain?  Will you help our nations leaders by Inaurgating (commence officially) a  new way of being? 

Namaste’

I have been playing with the concept of contracts, those that we are here to fulfill while we are on the planet.  Caroline Myss has a wonderful book out about the topic and I found myself re-reading some of the passages this past week.

One of the archetypes that she identifies that I certainly can admit to is “addict”.  The premise behind this is that we come into this lifetime to complete, a spiritual contract in this case recover from addicition.  It got me thinking about recovery in a different way.   I know that AA who I credit for helping me get sober might have a different opinion on the subject, but what if our addicition/recovery is more about fulfilling our souls contract?  For me that takes on as much or more meaning than “the disease”.    Dis-ease would be more appropriate…the fact that we are not comfortable inside and part of that would be related to our quest for something bigger.  I have always felt my own addiction was a “homesick for heaven” feeling.

I then began to think about contracts I might have with other people in my life.  We know that people come into our lives for a reason, season or a lifetime.  Is there a person in your life or situation in your life that you feel might have a sacred contract with?

If so ponder the following:

• What is the contract you agreed to complete with the person before you came into being?
• Have you fulfilled that contract and need to move on?
• If you haven’t fulfilled it, what needs to happen in order to complete it?
• Are you hanging on to something that has been completed for a long time but choose not to move?
• What more contracts might there be to be fulfilled, what are the upcoming lessons for you?

If you have successfully completed your contract with the addict in you congratulations, if you haven’t what if you considered it a part of your souls purpose?